Lori Burke's Shiome Circle Healing Session with Judith Hancox
Posted
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- Dec
- 15
- 2024
by Elizabeth Boisson
MaryEllen / Judith Hancox
Hi Judi,
I was in your HPH healing circle class on Monday, December 9th. I want to let you know how much this class has helped me!
My daughter, MaryEllen, passed six months ago. She had a very rare progressive neuromuscular syndrome. Her life was full of everything medical. For the last several years, she was vent-dependent and tube-fed. Despite it all, her light was bright! She was always smiling, no matter what. We were so lucky to have her pure and joyful spirit with us for so long.
Doctors always told us that her life would be short. After years of hearing that, we simply enjoyed the days we had --37 years of them! It was still a shock when she crossed, as she was always so robust and healthy, even with her debilitating condition.
The last six months have been filled with so much grief, anxiety, and whatever the absolute opposite of peace is. I felt like I had an anxiety buzz streaming from my core 24 hours a day.
You see, MaryEllen's younger brother, Kevin, also has the same condition. His medical complexities and care needs are identical to MaryEllen’s. Grieving and providing 24-hour care don’t go well together. Everything is a trigger, and my anxiety and sadness have been overwhelming.
I was hesitant to join your class—mostly because that would mean admitting I am part of this group of parents who have "lost" their child. I know that this is not HPH terminology, but joining these parents means acknowledging that I truly belong in this “club.” It felt somewhat protective to pretend that I didn’t really belong.
That’s where I was on Monday.
After the class, I felt peaceful. Throughout this week, that sense of peace has grown and grown. I can’t explain it! I was so afraid and anxious about the upcoming holidays, but now I feel peace. When you said, "You can still be sad, but be peaceful," it stuck with me. I feel that now. I am not sad all the time, and when sadness creeps in, it doesn’t take hold of me, spin me around, and spit me out. I stay at peace in my core, and it passes.
I’ve been doing the meditation three times a day. The vision I was given was my large oak tree in my backyard! I have a new fondness for the tree I had never really paid much attention to before.
And that disturbing thought I came with? Completely neutralized. Even if I think hard about it, it just comes up as a memory I had. That’s it. Before the class, the thought made me cry every time.
Thank you so much for what you do for us parents. You are a gift to this community, and I am so grateful for the opportunity to have attended your class!
I am sending pictures of MaryEllen (and Kevin) so you can feel their bright light, too. :)
Thank you again! Thank you, thank you.
~Warm regards, Lori Burke
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